Sleep Deprivation

You know, being a mother of two didn't start out being all that hard. "I really anticipated it being a lot more challenging in the beginning," I told everyone. I should have said, "give me a couple of weeks with them and when Conner starts to be awake more often and requiring more attention, then get back to me." The truth is, now that he's 3 weeks he's awake more often and his sleep patterns at night are all messed up. Some nights he will sleep great and others he is up every hour wanting to eat. Either way though when 5 am hits he wants to be awake to eat, grunt and play. I am trying to get Kaily to go to bed earlier by not letting her nap, but that doesn't seem to matter to her. She still won't go to sleep until 9:30-10:00pm. By the time I get Kaily to bed and through her routine Conner wakes up and wants to eat. I don't think I have gone to bed before 11pm since he was born. The other morning I was changing his diaper and he peed all over everything, (the joy of having a boy, the pee goes EVERYWHERE.) So when I was cleaning him up I found a big white mark on the side of his head. I couldn't figure out what it was, it looked like dry skin and flaked off like it was dead skin. It was MILK. Apparently I fed him in my sleep that night. I actually think I do that more often than I think I do. Getting used to sleep deprivation is taking it's toll.

Have you ever noticed how much heavier everything seems to be after you have a baby. Not that you suddenly loose all muscle in your arms, I think it's due to the fact that your baby is so light. Even though Kaily hasn't gained weight in the last 6 months she suddenly feels twice the weight she once felt to me. I carried her when I was pregnant, I can't believe I did that now.

Conner has had some milestones this week. My favorite is the smile he gives me when I talk to him or hold him. He loves to be talked to softly and he loves his baths. He has also started to coo. Can I tell you how much I love to hear it! I think baby coo's are one of the cutest things ever. He loves his bouncer, the vibrating on it and when anyone besides Kaily bounces it.

Kaily's new thing lately is when she gets in trouble or when she doesn't like what we are doing she will come up to us and say, "I need to talk to you about your problem, do you know what your problem is?" Then she will proceed to tell us all things we are doing to make her upset and the things she is doing that make us upset. When she is done with her rant she will say, "So, you need to listen to me, you know that? You will be in big trouble if you don't listen, cuz you need to listen to me." Realize that she is saying all of this in a very matter-of-fact voice. I think my 3 yr old is aging faster than I can keep up.

This week Clint has been so great to me. He is really trying to help out with the kids and even though he doesn't get to bed before 1:30am he is willing to take Conner after I feed him at 4 and let him sleep next to him so I can get some sleep without hearing him grunt and cry. Then when Kaily wakes-up with a bad dream and climbs into bed on his side so "Daddy will protect me" he doesn't complain. I think I would....no, I know I would be putting her back in her bed. I am very grateful for him. Oh and yesterday I gave him a haircut. It will look better in a couple of days when all the places I cut too short grow out. *Sigh* At least he let me try to do it.