Little Lessons
As we were watching Conference this morning I had a learning lesson from my little children. There has been a lot of stress around here lately with everything that is going on and admittedly I haven't been the greatest, nicest wife. Often I find I loose my temper at the end of the day when I feel spent, I snap at small things my children might be doing. In all, I feel like I need to start over. Last night, after yet another fight with Kaily about eating her dinner after she complained that she 
was SOOO hungry, I was putting her to bed and she apologized to me for throwing tantrums and making me sad. I remembered a favorite line from Anne of Green Gables, "Tomorrow is fresh with no mistakes in it." I told Kaily that and she really liked the idea that you can start each day fresh, that once you say your sorry you can really start over and try again. So, back to that epiphany during General Conference...I was sitting on my bed watching Conference when Conner turned the corner looked up at me and caught my eyes. He then smiled the biggest smile and ran to me with arms out stretched so wide so that I could lift him into my arms and he could hug me as big and tight as his little arms could. My heart melted and before wanting to get down again he planted a big wet kiss on my lips. The conversation I had with Kaily ran through my mind about fresh starts. I couldn't help but feel the love of my Father in Heaven as the spirit taught me. Everyday is fresh with no mistakes in it and that's because of the 
Atonement of Jesus Christ. Because of that gift I too can run into the outstretched arms of a loving Father who knows my MANY faults and loves me even when I know I disappoint him or maybe make him a little mad at me. Just as Conner got so excited to embrace me so does our Father get excited, and longs to embrace us, His children. In those moments it's amazing to me how fast I forget and start getting angry with these little ones. I think sometime we think because in this life we are "grown-ups" that we no longer throw tantrums and we are better than our children. But to an all-knowing, eternal Heavenly Father we are still children and in more ways than I would like to admit sometimes we all still act like children from time to time. I feel that in so many ways I am just beginning to understand the eternal nature of love, and forgiveness. For this knowledge I am truly grateful.
was SOOO hungry, I was putting her to bed and she apologized to me for throwing tantrums and making me sad. I remembered a favorite line from Anne of Green Gables, "Tomorrow is fresh with no mistakes in it." I told Kaily that and she really liked the idea that you can start each day fresh, that once you say your sorry you can really start over and try again. So, back to that epiphany during General Conference...I was sitting on my bed watching Conference when Conner turned the corner looked up at me and caught my eyes. He then smiled the biggest smile and ran to me with arms out stretched so wide so that I could lift him into my arms and he could hug me as big and tight as his little arms could. My heart melted and before wanting to get down again he planted a big wet kiss on my lips. The conversation I had with Kaily ran through my mind about fresh starts. I couldn't help but feel the love of my Father in Heaven as the spirit taught me. Everyday is fresh with no mistakes in it and that's because of the 
Atonement of Jesus Christ. Because of that gift I too can run into the outstretched arms of a loving Father who knows my MANY faults and loves me even when I know I disappoint him or maybe make him a little mad at me. Just as Conner got so excited to embrace me so does our Father get excited, and longs to embrace us, His children. In those moments it's amazing to me how fast I forget and start getting angry with these little ones. I think sometime we think because in this life we are "grown-ups" that we no longer throw tantrums and we are better than our children. But to an all-knowing, eternal Heavenly Father we are still children and in more ways than I would like to admit sometimes we all still act like children from time to time. I feel that in so many ways I am just beginning to understand the eternal nature of love, and forgiveness. For this knowledge I am truly grateful.
4 comments:
We never stop learning do we. I'm also grateful for the gospel and the knowing that our Heavenly Father loves us even we throw tantrums. Our children continue to teach us even when they have their own children teaching them. The innocence of a child, their pure love and spirit teach us that heaven is as close as their hugs and kisses. I love you, my children and the grandchildren you have given me. I pray that I will always feel the Savior's love through you.
Thank you for sharing that. That is one of the most comforting thoughts that we can start fresh. And it truly is amazing to have the love of our children even when we maybe don't deserve it as much as we should.
I love when my kids teach me something because you know it is Christ shining through their eyes. No hidden meanings just our Savior
I loved your post. Beautifully written. There are so many times that I lose my patience but that doesn't mean that all is lost. Thankfully we can all start fresh.
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